It’s Getting Nuts Around Here

It's been a long time since anything moved me to write here as I once had when my children were small. They provided endless inspiration for posts that documented our place in time, and their place in my heart. Of all the cherished possessions that catalog our history: grade school art, lost teeth, handmade cards,…

Covid-19, and Loved

I have struggled a lot lately with the fact that I feel needed and tugged at and almost demanded attention by all my nearest and dearest. Most certainly this is by design so I have no fair reason to complain, but it takes a toll on me. My good friend said to me that she…

Cottage Dreamin’

My desire to buy a cottage for my family has been swelling.  For 6 years, we have rented an adorable cottage in a small coastal town just under 3 hours from our house, due North.  Trust me when I tell you:  everything's better North.  After this past year's stress of my husband's job loss, it's…

Dear Kids,

Carmen, Adam, and Adriana, It occurred to me tonight why I stopped blogging about you.  Because you turned into teenagers and stopped flooding me with tears of joy and instead sent me into the fetal position where I now lie writhing in emotional pain, wondering when it turned bad and whether my first ten years…

God Be With Us

I just read Mark Manson's short on The Subtle Art Of Not Giving a Fuck.  It made me laugh, but then it made me cry because this is one of those occasions the fucks have taken over.  And it pisses me off a little, too, because I make a pretty decent effort to see the…

The Amazing Peanut

Somehow it seems that in my earlier years writing when the kids were younger, I don't believe my sweetest little one has had many posts devoted just to her.  This one's for you. First year of high school and today was your last day of midterms.  The results are in: you are an amazing student.  THIS…

Sojourners

I just had an interesting insight.  I always blame my mother for having selective perception about my childhood and our relationship over the years.  It has dawned on me that my children will most likely do the same, and that made me wonder what they may glean from reading all this many years ahead.  Will…

A New Era

Today my kids are 15, almost 14, and soonly 12.  Who are those little creatures that used to dwell here?  They are not the children sleeping near me right now.  Looking back I realize why I probably stopped writing for a while.  Puberty hit and things got ugly.  The "crazy fun" I used to write…

2 Beats 1

There are undeniable benefits to any number of children that complete your family, as well as drawbacks. When we had our first daughter, my boss with three children would laugh as I went on in detail about the most minute aspects of parenthood, like fussy napping or figuring out how to shower when just she…